At first I thought it was an emotion that I had the power to control.
However when I tried to move on, it was like no matter what was offered to me, it wasn't enough. There was always something missing, something wrong. I had lied to myself for so long, but truth be told I still wanted you.
It was then I realised when I couldn't move on, yet didnt want to push forward. Im stuck in limbo.
All I know is I love you.
And I can't believe it took this for me to realise what I had been doing wrong, I had you and then I lost you.
I know neither of us did anything right in the relationship we both had our flaws. I openly admit I smothered you but I only did it to get over your act of infidelity.
It hurt like a dagger when you said you didn't love me anymore. It confused me when your actions spoke otherwise. And it killed me to know you only came to the decision of being unhappy with me by your mates planting the idea in your head.
I pray for a chance for you to realise you still love me.
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